i got nothing more to say the world....black is the color of everything right now, black is the color of my eyes, because that is what I feel I deserve sometimes... Just the way to get either punished or taught a lesson...
I've learned my lesson already! But why am I still getting punished for something I don't know!?
Who is really the one who's punishing me? Is it Fate, is it the almighty God?! I don't think so! The one who is punishing me is myself...The thing is, is that I really like someone, and I just can't show it to her because I've hurt her to much to get her to believe me again...This IS my punishment, I have to figure out what I have to do to make her trust, believe me again that I am the one that always will love her! Sounds like a piece of cake, but believe me when I say it's NOT! And I've tried to show her that i love her for more than a year now, sure I've been with other girls, but that's just an attempt of trying to find a girl that is just like her...there is no one like her, she is the woman of my life and I know it! Now it's just up to me to convince that I am the man of her life...sure it sounds a little bit cliché all over it, but that's how I really feel about her, and she doesn't sees it....that is what makes me feel that I have failed her completely sometimes, but if I would've thought that I've failed her completely I wouldn't been able to be around her for the whole year that have passed after we've broke up. I just have to step up just enough to proove her that I am the man of her life, that is what I am about to do! 

"If life screws you over, well, then it is your turn to get revenge on life!" - Jesper Karlsson

Shit happens, they said
Life goes on, they said

I got a pretty intense feeling that shit happens to me all the time and that life maybe goes on but not really to it's full capacity.

I've got a theory 'bout life, and that theory is that; when someone gets involved in your life so much that when that person leaves, it just hurt so damn bad,.
So bad that you almost want to kill yourself.... There is one thing that is in that level of emotionally pain and that is when you have to be the one 
that want to breakup. And then to tell the person you're in a relationship with is the hardest thing of them all.
Sure people tells me that I've got a great personality and such things, but i feel like a heartless monster when I am the one that is going to tell a person this.
But what can I say? Shit happens to all of us, and the thing is that you can never plan your entire life. You just have to take the as it comes for you and make 
the best of it! Carpe Diem!